I tend not to make New Year's Resolutions. I really am not sure why that is, but this year I am making an intentional decision to make resolutions and do my best to keep them. One of the best ways I think I can be held accountable is to write them out here, in the blogosphere, and be kept accountable when I start to slack off. So here we go. Many may seem cliche but they are honestly things that I want to work on. I'm sure there are others that can be added, but I don't want to overwhelm myself and then fail at them all. :)
1. to eat healthy and to workout to BE healthy (not for the purpose of being skinny) - this will perhaps be the hardest for me because it is more of a change in the way I think than the way I act. I have been eating healthier in the past 6 months than I probably ever have. I have been working out and thinking of ways that I can workout more. I have been encouraging people to try new workout videos and games. All in the hopes of being skinny. And what has it gotten me? Exhaustion and no weight loss AT ALL. Last year I gained approximately 15 lbs (maybe more) from the beginning of the year to the end. All my little tricks that used to help me drop pounds isn't working anymore. I'm tired. I'm tired of focusing on the little bit of flab around my midsection and my imperfect thighs.
I feel good when I work out. I feel healthy. That's what I want to focus on. I want to not get tired walking up the 4 flights of stairs to work.
2. I want to read my Bible more and I want to pray more - I have to be honest, I used to be good at this. I used to read my Bible and spend time praying every single day. Then one day I woke up and felt like it wasn't doing me any good; I was talking to the ceiling and reading words that didn't really apply to me. So, I stopped. I thought that I would miss that routine that I had so "perfected." But, I didn't. I didn't miss talking to the ceiling. I didn't miss reading just words.
I have come to realize that while I did feel like I was in a routine - there were also times when I knew God was speaking to me (whether through prayer or reading His word) and where I felt an immeasurable peace. That's what I desire. That's what I want back. I want to know what God has in store for my life and I really can't find that if I am not spending time with Him. I am thankful for a church that encourages our struggles and finds ways to help develop these habits. Cross Point has begun a 31 day challenge. Reading a chapter of Proverbs a day for each day in January. 31 chapters in Proverbs is perfect for the 31 days in January. This is my first goal - to participate in this challenge each and every day (not letting 4 days pass and catching up). A
blog has been set up where members of the church staff will put their insights from the daily reading. If this is an area that you struggle in, like I do, please join us!! One of the things that stood out to me from today's reading was not found in the text of Proverbs 1, but in the notes in my Life Application Bible and that is "Wisdom is the mind of God revealed"
3. Read more - I love fiction books. I absolutely adore being transported to a different time and place. But I have quit reading. I think a lot of it has to do with resolution #4. I'm not sure my wonderful husband will be to big of a fan of this resolution. :) I tend to literally get lost in a book. I can tune out pretty much anything that is going on around me and don't like to be bothered until I am at a stopping place. I sometimes sacrifice quality time with David to finish the next chapter. So this resolution is two-fold -> read more, but remember what is more important in life - relationships
4. Watch less TV - Television is a very easy vacation from the realities of life. I think this is why so many people (me included) get sucked in and watch way more television than anyone should. I grew up in the country in central MS. In the summer, it is blazing hot. In the winter, it is (mostly) pretty chilly. All of which are not ideal and since it is too far to go into town just to poke around, television becomes your friend. I think this routine has made its way into my adult life. I can sit down in the den and turn the tv on "just for noise" and next thing I know 4 hours has passed and it's time to go to bed and I have not done anything. I don't want this. I want to cultivate my creativity. I want to invest in my relationships. This is going to be hard for me. Some of the shows that I get invested in are starting up again in January (Biggest Loser, Burn Notice, Lost, So You Think You Can Dance, Survivior). Somehow I am going to have to decide which shows are disposable and spend time on other activities. This is going to be a tough one for me.
So, wow, this post is a lot longer than I ever intended, but it feels good to open up and put it all on the table.
What are your New Year's Resolutions?
and also, What are some good books for me to read in 2010?